one thing i've noticed lately: i have stopped writing in my journal religiously, only occasionally opening its holy pages to read over, think, and scribble a few awkward lines. and i think perhaps this site may have something to do with that.
but then, as eben says, i write even in my own journal as though for an audience, so perhaps i may as well have one...
spent the morning at my kitchen table, spying once again but mostly reading this incredible epic article about joanna newsom (tonight i see her!). anyone who doesn't quite believe in her should definitely read this article... i sat for an hour afterwards just listening to her new album and crying and feeling so... so... well, you know. that way that you feel when you hear incredible music that touches something personal, something specific in your life. there's probably a term for it, or should be.
i perhaps have a new job as a nanny. not sure how i feel about having yet another sporatic (?) job with random hours. i'm finding it harder and harder to have a routine, which i realized while traveling is something i desperately love. morning coffee and reading is still a go, so that's something. i'm grateful for my ability to wake up slow even while employed; to have a few hours to stare at the wall and ponder the intricacies of life and death and music. but i'm finding it hard to enjoy all this free time to its fullest when i'm always stressed about Money and my Future and all that other stuff that takes over.
so, any ideas kids? for Money, for My Future?
and contemplating christmas this morning too. family and friends and that warm glow; and also the recent fallability i've discovered in those i believed to be infallible throughout my childhood. maybe not so much fallability as vulnerability, which is perhaps worse. getting older is so strange. my love for everyone is changing, becoming more complicated but maybe stronger.
well, anyways, christmas comes and even though i'm not making christmas cards i'm definitely feeling infinitely older this time around. wiser? weathered? not too sure. maybe just different.
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It's "sporadic".
BAM!
sorry.
everything is so touching ... I am not convinced yet that it is a good thing. For example: I found myself touched by a Star Trek episode yesterday.
that ... sucked.
I guess the solutions are to either never be touched or only expose yourself to things that you are okay being touched by.
i.e. not star trek. can you even imagine how embarrasing that was? gah.
regarding the other issues, i was listening to a song earlier today with very powerful lyrics. It was by Bone Thugs and Harmony. It might help!
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