today feels like a good one. i woke up late and slow, made coffee, and sat at the kitchen table for a long while just watching the snow fall and peering in on my next-door neighbours. (ah, the intimacy of city-dwellers).
been doing a lot of thinking lately. i still have a lot of time on my hands, but i feel good about it today. if i can make rent in two days and have a bit of cash to spare i'll be happy. isn't that what life should be like? scraping off enough freedom to be happy, and working enough to feel satisfied and stress free? i don't mind working if it fulfills me, but i can't imagine spending the next ten years working full time in the food industry. and i won't.
and for this reason i am liking tutoring; i have found something that makes me feel good and that i think perhaps i am good at. i am helping people to learn and i am getting paid for it. and i'm valued and appreciated, which should not be taken for granted.
and the world around me has had a glow lately. i feel like my perspective, my way of seeing things has changed so much. i still get depressed, i still have terrible days. but i've come to see how precious life is, how fleeting and how marvelous t'is. look outside! it's incredibly beautiful, and so unlikely. on days like this i forget completely why i get so down sometimes.
and i'm finding a community, a staggered disconnected and motley community, but still. there are familiar faces in random spaces, and that is the one thing i have been looking for since i left victoria.
and it can only get better, right?
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Yes indeed. Up and up.
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